This morning has just totally flown by! I don’t get how my mornings fly by and I hardly get to drink the coffee I want but then the day just drags on after lunch. Like, it’s already lunch time but I still want another cup of coffee! I guess I could always drink one but after a certain time it doesn’t taste as good as it does in the mornings.
I keep telling myself that I am going to start keeping a daily record of all the things that Kevin and I do. I feel like we are always working or finishing a project or cleaning. Oh who am I kidding, we are always cleaning lol. But for real, we do a lot on a daily basis. Let me try and list some real quick:
Thursday: sweep, mop, straighten up toys. Make icing for cupcakes, Kevin helped move my parents.
Wednesday: play date in sumrall, take chickens to the swamp, go get tractor, trailer, and truck from my parents land
Tuesday: clean and move (extremely heavy) couch to Vicksburg, call multiple people about dining room table, move furniture from my parents house to ours
Monday: move table and chairs out of the house, go pick up new chairs from my parents house, move washer and dryer into parents trailer
Sunday: go to church, go to the zoo, take care of cranky kids who didn’t nap(lol!)
So anyways I’m gonna stop there, but that’s a heck of a lot of stuff we have done! And it’s like this alllll the time. I can’t wait for some sort of a break.
So we did get a lot of furniture out of our house! I’m so excited. We have more room now yet our living room doesn’t feel empty. It feels even more balanced than before. We’re still moving things around and working on how we want everything to look but I saw a picture earlier of how it looks now and I really really love it. Nothing matches at all anymore but that’s something we will take care of when we get to that point.
I don’t know if I mentioned it before but Eleanor’s birthday party is this weekend and I need to start working on that! I’m planning on doing mini cupcakes because those are my absolute favorite desserts. I also want to decorate them with rainbow colors! The more minimalist we get, the more drawn to colors I become. I don’t think Kevin knows this yet but oh well! He’ll find out 🙂 I also plan to have snack foods like fruit and veggies, Eleanor loves those too! I want to do some fun decorations but I don’t know if I’ll have the time.
I want to do so many creative projects but I’m just not in a season of life where that’s easily done. I’m deep in the trenches of babyhood and toddlerhood so it feels like my life is one long game of catch up. I’m not trying to complain but I just need to tell somebody that life right now is hard! Lately I’ve been feeling this vibe that everybody expects moms to know what they’re doing. It may be just me and my insecurities, but when I get asked questions by women who aren’t in these trenches, I feel pressure to be right and if I’m not right then that’s not good enough. I don’t believe I’m alone in feeling that way and if that’s the case, it’s not okay. Mothers everywhere of every stage need compassion. None of us know what we’re doing and it is ok that we don’t get everything right sometimes.
Sometimes babies just don’t sleep.
Sometimes three year olds don’t eat.
Sometimes two year olds don’t nap.
It’s okay for all these things to happen. And I’m actually ok when these things happen. Until somebody else asks about it and then the insecurities start. I find myself overwhelmed by this because I have never been an insecure person so to experience these emotions is just crazy feeling.
Ok, that’s all I have today.